You think you know me?

It's been a long time since I blogged about anything. I've been offline and enjoying life for a while and even now I'm not on as much as I once was... but there are a lot of things that need to be said. My general outlook on life is positive, as positive as it can be in these days and times. Yes I like sad and depressing songs, and I believe love is a disease for which there is no cure. I also believe heartbreak is powerful and when someone captures the true essence of what you feel in a poem or song it's good to share it. Recently I have done that. Usually i'm the one who's writing. But I haven't really written anything since I stopped seeing Michelle and I'm just kind of taking in things others have written. No, I'm not suffering from depression, No I'm not going to kill myself, and yes I'm fine. People have the tendency to believe that just because you love someone and are heartbroken that you can't move on with your life... Truth is it happens every day. You will never understand the meaning of love until the day comes when everyone around you; even the person you are in love with has given up but you still believe... Love = belief... No matter where life takes you. There's nothing that says you can't try and live your life, date, hang out with friends, be stupid, or whatever... it's part of healing, but being in love true love isn't something that ever just goes away. Some feeling run deeper than anyone can ever explain in any song, poem, story, or any type of word... some things just ARE. So while your thinking i'm over here crying my eyes out night after night, with my head down and depressed, the actuality of it is i'm probably out and about with friends, or even on a date. Do I still love Michelle? ABSOLUTELY. Do I think she still loves me ABSOLUTELY. Do I think we will ever be together... As real as love is, and as true as it may be, some things just can't be over come. And love is a two way street, so try as I might I can't make her travel with me. She's a great person, a great friend, and I'm glad she's in my life, she taught me what it means to truely love someone, and i've had things with her that I've never had with anyone in my life. The truth is I understand why she doesn't want to be with me . We both made our mistakes. So if the day ever comes where she believes in me again so be it. No one knows me like they think... I'm pretty open with my life and some of my feelings, true enough, but the fact remains i'm very secluded, and to quote another song to end this which I think basically describes me over the last six months " Nobody knows me i'm cold. Walk down this road all alone, it's no one's fault but my own, it's the path i've chosen to go, frozen as snow I show no emotions whatsoever so".